I don’t know who’s gonna kiss you when I’m gone
So I’m gonna love you now, like it’s all I have
I know it’ll kill me when it’s over
I don’t wanna think about it, I want you to love me now
When I was a senior in high school I really liked my girlfriend Brady (not her real name). It started off amazing: love notes, school dances, walking together near her house in the snowy winter night holding hands.
But, I knew that I would soon be going to college, and she would stay back in our hometown. Because I knew that in six months it “wouldn’t work,” I gradually just emotionally killed the relationship. Then, when she broke up with me in the summer, I was surprised.
Yeah, I wasn’t too smart.
So often when we get into romantic relationships we do things to sabotage them, not because we don’t want to be with that person, but because we think of what may happen in the future. I’ve heard them all….
“I love her, but I’m going to college next year.”
“He’s perfect, but he’s so cute he might leave me.”
“I know I’ll sabotage this eventually, so why get close?”
“I’ll get hurt eventually, so it’s best to shut him out.”
There is one place we can live: the present. Yet, most people attempt to live in other states, like the future or the past. But, let’s look at what the past and future really are. The past is simply a collection of memories from past present moments. The future is even less real. It is your brain’s projection of what may happen.
We can’t live in the future. When I became distant from Brady I let a possible outcome ruin months of potential joy and happiness. I’m sure the relationship would have ended eventually, but I made sure it ended because of fear of potential heartbreak. I lost months of present joy and happiness because of fear of the future.
So, even if it will end someday, live in the present. Enjoy that moment with the people you love.